How do you weigh the weight of knowing what’s worse than death from personal experience? If you can’t get this right then how can you care? This is why those who purport to care about suicidal individuals fail to care.

I’ve put years of work into communicating one point clearly. It is a point and a truth that is fundamentally anti-psychiatry and anti medical model.

The point is how awful it is to become suicidal and stay suicidal.

Many would say this is an obvious truth that is part of their sense of care for suicidal individuals. I have too much personal experience of what happens to me instead of killing me to know that no one has the competency to recognise the truth about just how beyond awful it is to be suicidal and stay suicidal.

It is critical to recognising why there is no care without assisted suicide to recognise how horrifically awful it is to feel suicidal and stay suicidal.

It is the worst state of conscious existence. It is the worst state of mental suffering. It is worth dying to escape from. It is worse than death. This is what being suicidal is about.

The truths in the above paragraph are not in evidence in the sense of care that prevails. I do not see anything in the medicalised suicide system and suicide laws that recognises just how awful it is what suicidal individuals face. I see unlimited cruelties and evils that defines psychiatric and mental health care…no…worse than this I am not just witness but victim to the will to use unlimited cruelty and evil on suicidal individuals.

Elsewhere I write about the human race as the monsters who call themselves the human race. One justification is the unlimited cruelties and evils I have faced when I’m suicidal already. These are so easily done by the monsters who call themselves the human race without remorse or mercy.

They are only acceptable consequences when those who purport to care about suicidal individuals are unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel. When unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel it’s so easy to believe that acceptable consequences are prolonging, furthering and worsening suicidality.

The risk of harm to suicidal individuals is not weighed right so what are unacceptable consequences to a suicidal individual – what do you think prolonging, furthering and worsening suicidality is to a suicidal individual? – are acceptable consequences and acceptable risks for monsters to take.

That’s why I’ve been suicidal for a decade continuously. It is what is only ever acceptable to a species of monsters born and bred evil that this is how long I remain suicidal – and the last decade is not the totality of my life I’ve faced life worse than death.

It is because too many bear my pain too easily and that’s the tragedy of every suicidal individual before me.

If you think I do face a sense of care then where’s the remorse and mercy? Mercy is fundamental to care and that’s why there’s no care without assisted suicide.

But let’s talk about the sense of responsibility which is: we can bear you to be tortured and be responsible for you being tortured but we can’t be responsible for your death.

When you are guided by the medicalised suicide system and the lie of mental illness you do not recognise cause and effect. It is a lie that deprives the pursuit of truth to say that suicidal individuals become suicidal and stay suicidal because are brains are defective thus our minds are defective.

So neither a sense of remorse exists nor a sense of responsibility for why suicidal individuals become suicidal and stay suicidal.

The sense of care I face doesn’t have a sense of remorse or mercy so it is so full of cruelty. How else can assisted suicide be a crime?

The cruelty I face is only possible when the competency to weigh the weight of knowing what’s worse than death from personal experience doesn’t exist. It is a sense of cruelty not care that has no mercy and so easily bears responsibility for the torture I face by being denied access to assisted suicide – clearly the only protection I can have against the will to torture me – but doesn’t bear the responsibility for killing me.

What assisted suicide represents to me is the bullet. The evil at the cores of the monsters who call themselves the human race is what pulls the trigger. There are other forces of course but the greatest force that pulls the trigger is the nature – human nature – of the monsters who call themselves the human race.

Because the monsters who call themselves the human race are always unaffected by how suicidal individuals. How else can assisted suicide be a crime? I will keep on feeling suicidal. The monsters who call themselves the human race do not have the competency to understand this information. They always fail to weigh the weight of how beyond horrific it is to become suicidal and stay suicidal. That’s why assisted suicide is a crime.

The crimes you do to me but they’re the crimes the monsters who call themselves the human race always do to suicidal individuals. You have no concept of what’s too cruel to do to a suicidal individual and you have no heart to stop you so you have no mercy – that’s what is responsible for my death not assisted suicide.

You don’t recognise the truth. You are too evil to be able to care.