I doubt you have the competency to recognise this. I doubt you have the competency to care so you don’t have the concept of living in safety from suicidality is part of living in safety.
Let me make this truth where it’s meant to be.
So what I face is years of being suicidal then crushing blow after crushing blow, hells after hell, because the monsters who call themselves the human race are still evil as always and always and still unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel. Each blow would take my will to live if I wasn’t suicidal already. But I’m suicidal already.
Do you have the competency to recognise a darkness of existence that’s blacker than black?
It’s been so long since I looked forward to living. I look forward to dying every single day you the monsters who call themselves the human race are utterly unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel.
Instead of granting me my death the monsters who call themselves the human race only protect the freedom to inflict, prolong and worsen suicidality indefinitely – so unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel this is the basis of care for suicidal individuals of the monsters who call themselves the human race. This is what is protected by the laws that affect suicidal individuals. Everything the monsters do to prevent successful suicides it’s because they really do want to protect the freedom to inflict, prolong and worsen suicidality indefinitely – I speak from vast amounts of personal experience.
I wasn’t always so certain about the necessity of the legalisation of assisted suicide. In fact perhaps fifteen years ago I was against the legalisation of assisted suicide. I was suicidal then but I didn’t believe in the necessity of the legalisation of assisted suicide like I do now.
My journey to recognise the truths I know began when I was working towards better clinical guidelines for we who are labelled with schizophrenia spectrum “mental illnesses”. The charity Rethink sent an email to its supporters to ask our MPs to make sure the guidelines were implemented. I clicked to send the message without reading the guidelines then my MP replied back I think to ask if I was sure I wanted what Rethink wanted so I went to read the clinical guidelines by NICE and they were absolutely atrocious recommendation.
The lives of schizophrenics are often hell. The proof of this is the very high prevalence of suicidality in this group who are victims of psychiatry. NICEs recommendations were like using a water pistol to put out a forest fire.
(It’s one of the great tragedies that the medical profession can’t recognise the presence of suicidal thoughts and feelings are the product of weakness, of fragility, of sensitivity. The prevalence of suicidal thoughts and feelings is high in those labelled with schizophrenia spectrum disorders – but instead of protect their victims from abuse the medical profession are part of the abuses done to the weak. That’s what psychiatric and mental health care does and always does. Never protects the weak but thinks the protection of the weak is by the use of such cruelties such as imprisonment. Then they wonder why suicidal individuals remain suicidal.)
I spent a couple of years reading research and information to seek to better these recommendations and send my findings to my MP to urge NICE to do something good not all the evil their recommendations were full of. But I utterly failed to come up with any evidence based improvements and really only came to recognise the horrific evil of the use of the drug clozapine – a drug forced on schizophrenics in the name of forced normalisation that kills.
All the while I was doing this I was suicidal and as I worked on this my white whale I came to recognise that assisted suicide has to be legal. It’s too good to be illegal. It’s too invaluable to be illegal.
Then by my own faults and the faults of monsters my life took a major turn for the worse. What was already the hell of staying suicidal became the hell of more and worsening of my suicidal thoughts and feelings. These only acceptable in a civilisation of monsters. Because what the monsters who call themselves the human race have as a basis for care for suicidal individuals is the freedom to inflict, prolong and worsen suicidality indefinitely. By the standards of monsters this is care but at least I recognise it’s only cruelty and sadistic cruelty at that that’s what I face. (It actually makes the monsters who call themselves the human race feel better by doing such cruelty to me and other suicidal individuals – there’s the source of the tragedies upon tragedy they always do so well to suicidal individuals.)
(Because of the prejudices perpetuated and enforced by psychiatry alone…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
I didn’t recognise what I was facing at this point. I didn’t recognise the brutality one man can do to another has never meaningfully changed in the history of the monsters who call themselves the human race. I didn’t recognise what I recognise so clearly now and that’s the brutality the monsters who call themselves the human race want to do to suicidal individuals.
(Because of the prejudices perpetuated and enforced by psychiatry alone…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
I didn’t recognise the monsters who call themselves the human race protect their freedom to achieve wanton and barbaric abuses of suicidal individuals. Not over a decade ago but I recognise this truth now absolutely clearly now and to this very moment I recognise this truth. By what they force me to live to inflict and the freedoms they protect by denying me my death.
(Because of the prejudices perpetuated and enforced by psychiatry alone…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
The barbaric cruelty one man can do to another is what has been protected for so long in the name of psychiatric and mental health care for suicidal individuals (and other victims of psychiatry) and before the monsters who call themselves the human race tried to care about suicidal individuals.
I really don’t want to recall the experiences that the monsters who call themselves the human race have so generously given me of this truth. I don’t even need to recall the experiences of the barbaric abuses the monsters who call themselves the human race want to do to suicidal individuals. They happen to me even now.
Let me reiterate
So what I face is years of being suicidal then crushing blow after crushing blow, hells after hell, because the monsters who call themselves the human race are still evil as always and always and still unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel. Each blow would take my will to live if I wasn’t suicidal already. But I’m suicidal already.
Do you have the competency to recognise a darkness of existence that’s blacker than black?
(Because of the prejudices perpetuated and enforced by psychiatry alone…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
I wasn’t always so certain about the necessity of the legalisation of assisted suicide or the protection of human rights for suicidal individuals – such as the right to use one’s death.
But now I am.
For one thing it’s the remorseless and merciless cruelty the monsters who call themselves the human race think is care.
(Because of the prejudices perpetuated and enforced by psychiatry alone…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
It’s utterly destroyed my faith in the species I once thought I was part of. It’s one of these things you’ll never recognise is important and vital to living to trust the human race have the capacity to care and be humane and be good. It was always vital for me to have faith in the human race but they destroyed this faith over a decade ago and still can’t stop proving the truth about human nature. This crushing blow happened after years of feeling suicidal.
(…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
It’s because of what the monsters who call themselves the human race are free to do to a suicidal individual. They don’t protect suicidal individuals how the weak are meant to be protected because of the dehumanisation fundamental to the paradigms and practices of psychiatry. (Mental diversity and mental suffering are the product of brain defects and by the standards of psychiatrists this is the truth. It’s the truth about the practice of dehumanisation practiced by psychiatry.)
(Do you have the competency to recognise that if I lived your life I’d want to kill myself?)
With these freedoms protected by the vast majority I am victim to the brutality that one man can do to another and the proof that the barbaric things the monsters who call themselves the human race do it never changes. While there have been gains when it comes to protection against physical suffering without consent the monsters who call themselves the human race are so sadistic to suicidal individuals.
So taking my will to live like it’s worthless isn’t enough for the monsters who call themselves the human race. Even forcing me to live for so long isn’t enough to satiate the sadistic nature of human nature. Even giving me yet another reason to die so profoundly worse than death as having lost faith in everyone I’ve ever met and more to be humane and good. These things are too awful for anyone to face. But I face these things and more and it’s still not enough to satiate the evil at the cores of a species of monsters born and bred evil. Each a crushing blow in itself that would destroy my will to live if I wasn’t suicidal already but I’m suicidal and still suicidal and face these crushing blows.
(…what do you expect was going to happen to something so different as I am?)
When once the main thing to die to escape from was to escape from the mental pain of living then as human nature is as remorseless as it is merciless to suicidal individuals I recognised the truth that the objective of no more people is yet another primary purpose of using my death to achieve. You even begin to comprehend how horrific it is to want to die to escape from the monsters who call themselves the human race?
But that’s the thing. The monsters who call themselves the human race you do not know pain. They never developed this capacity for empathy for mental pain because of the dehumanisation fundamental to the paradigms and practices of psychiatry. The existence of psychiatry did nothing to change the evil at their cores or give you a heart to stop them.
Recognise the truth why I have to die it’s because of what you are born and bred. Can you recognise what this pain is like when you face it?
What do you think is going to happen to me when so many monsters take power over how I feel? When the monsters who call themselves the human race are still unaffected by how suicidal individuals what else can happen to something like me?
The dehumanisation of suicidal individuals is so profound and pervasive. This is one of the things responsible for my death not assisted suicide. The monsters think it’s to kill me by my consent that’s the crime, the thing they can’t bear to happen to me, but they bear my suicidality like I am here to have my humanity completely and utterly betrayed by everyone.
Its not just the last decade I face the utter incompetence to make me want to live. But neither do I face any humane protections for suicidal individuals. What I face has everything in common with “your suffering will never be too much for me to bear as long as you live” – the monsters who call themselves the human race have always had this sense of cruelty for suicidal individuals throughout the centuries the monsters who call themselves the human race have tried to care about suicidal individuals since the lie of mental illness and the institution of psychiatry founded on this lie was invented.
So the monsters who call themselves the human race lack even the most basic empathy to recognise what I face is only sadistic cruelty. Because the severity of the suffering of suicidal individuals and the awfulness of feeling suicidal is there to be ignored. The limit to what I can suffer and endure is always there to be ignored – that’s what is in the minds of monsters throughout the history of the monsters who call themselves the human race and throughout the history of the existence of psychiatry.
The limit to what I can suffer and endure is always there to be ignored – this is the opposite of care but it’s what I face. Can you have the empathy to recognise what this truth feels like to a suicidal individual?
Can you even begin to comprehend what it’s like to spend a decade and every single day you look forward to dying and never look forward to living? You can’t recognise this is too cruel to force anyone to endure because you the monsters who call themselves the human race are still and always unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel. You only give me more truth about why I should never ever had any faith that the human race can be humane. You only give me more proof I am better off having never been born by denying me my death and the freedom the monsters who call themselves the human race protect by denying me my death.
(A species of monsters born and bred evil who gorges on the freedom to make a suicidal individual want to die and has never ever cared about protecting suicidal individuals against abuse – yes I do know why you can’t do anything else after you force me to live.)
It’s being so cruel to suicidal individuals that’s what I can trust the monsters who call themselves the human race to do. This is the truth that has changed me and made me such a strong supporter of my death. It’s what’s made me so certain of the necessity of the legislation of assisted suicide but also of everything else that defines a revolution towards humane society and culture and care.
(What do you expect is going to happen to something like me when you can’t care? You’re too cruel in the name of psychiatric and mental health care.)
What exists right now is utter heartlessness for the tragedies of being suicidal because I can’t take the pain of living. I can’t live your lives and I can’t live my life. They’re all options worse than death. But the prevail of utter heartlessness leads to the objective of no more people too that’s yet another reason to die. You can’t even begin to comprehend how awful this all feels – so I only face the sense of cruelty “your suffering will never be too much for me to bear as long as you live”.
So what I face is years of being suicidal then crushing blow after crushing blow, hells after hell, because the monsters who call themselves the human race are still evil as always and always and still unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel. Each blow would take my will to live if I wasn’t suicidal already. But I’m suicidal already.
Do you have the competency to recognise a darkness of existence that’s blacker than black?
(The point I was meant to lead to is the concept of being safe to be alive as defined by the concept that living in safety from suicidality is part of living in safety. The point would be the monsters who call themselves the human race are so utterly unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel that the species of monsters born and bred evil who call themselves the human race do not have this concept ever throughout the history of the monsters who call themselves the human race. Then I would lead to the point that if you have an iota of empathy for suicidal individuals then you recognise that 1% of a 150 year lifetime spent suicidal is the proof that a suicidal individual can’t live in safety amongst monsters like you.)
(But it’s all about you you who have never stepped forth onto the path to understanding the wide diversity of mental diversity and mental suffering…how can you believe you can care about me when you have not ever stepped forth onto the path to understanding the wide diversity of mental diversity and mental suffering. The monsters who call themselves the human race have the lie of mental illness and none of you have ever stepped forth onto the path to understanding the wide diversity of mental diversity and mental suffering. You bear the darkness of my existence that’s blacker than black like you only have evil at your cores and no heart and that’s why I can’t live in safety. You’re just too evil to be able to care. Obviously when you are unaffected by how suicidal individuals feel you’ll never recognise why 1% of a lifetime spent suicidal is too much to be beared.)
a thing that defines the competency to care 