It’s because you don’t recognise the extent of the evil you are doing to me it is always worth using my death to stop you. It is because you can’t accurately weigh the evil and the harms that is why I am better off having never been born – this is what I mean when I say it’s always worth using my death to stop you (you the government, the care professions and the rest of the monsters who call themselves the human race).
I should not need to fight for my death if you recognise the extent of the evil and harms. But you can’t do this. You can’t weigh the evils and harms with the most basic empathy and understanding for my being – but that’s what defines your acts or care and that’s only made the tragedies of my existence even worse than death.
You have never had the most basic empathy and understanding for my being and that’s why I have spent so much of my lifetime feeling suicidal. You bear my suicidality like you’re a species of monsters born and bred evil and only competent when caring about and protecting your self interests not mine. The extent of my suicidality is chosen by so many monsters in the name of their self interests not mine.
To live without the most basic empathy and understanding for my being to protect me is a life worse than death. You can’t weigh the extent of the evil and harms correctly so it has always been worth using my death to stop you. You bear my suicidality as acceptable consequences because you have never had the most basic empathy and understand. Thus you do not recognise the evil and harms.
I have to work for care. Your sense of care for suicidal individuals is too evil and cruel.
a thing that defines the competency to care 