If you have the competency to care I could not spend so much of a lifetime feeling suicidal. Too much by any humane measure but there’s absolutely nothing humane that’s innate to human nature.

The lies I’ve been told throughout my existence “we care about you” I’m barely waking up to.

What’s done to me in the name of the self interests of monsters defines the horrific brutalities I face throughout my existence that defines my life as better off having never been born. With any power over my life that’s all the monsters who call themselves the human race can do well is make me so much better off having never been born and it’s because the competency to care doesn’t exist.

If you have the competency to care I could not spend so much of a lifetime feeling suicidal. The monumental extent of my suicidality – that’s the effect of the self interests of monsters prevailing over my self interests. But that’s what you have as a basis for care – the self interests of monsters are all you care about and that’s why so much of my lifetime I spend suicidal. You only care about the self interests of monsters – how else can so much of my lifetime be spent suicidal. There is no question. I live amongst a species of monsters born and bred evil.

The competency of sadists defines the criminalisation of assisted suicide. It’s designed to make suicidality as unlimited as the cruelty of sadists. To achieve unlimited pain and unlimited cruelties – you know you are who are protected in this pursuit by denying the protection of assisted suicide. You have a sense of care that in itself is worth dying to escape from because it is all about the competency of sadists to care about everyone else’s self interests but mine. Making so much of a lifetime spent suicidal is only in the self interests of sadists who have told me so many lies like “we care about you”. The self interests of sadists defines what are acceptable consequences to sadists and monsters. In no victims self interests is so much of a lifetime made spent feeling suicidal.